I thought long and hard yesterday about our situation and I just knew Toledo was out. Theres no way I would put myself and my daughter in a situation where we were afraid. Lea looked online on street by street view on Google looking at Johnson City saying, “Oh my god it looks the same”, as if time stood still. She was talking about going back to Girls Inc. a program she loved which was an afterschool program for girls and they have a day camp. It was hard when we left not to leave the area but for her to leave Girls Inc. She said she wanted to go to Indian Trail middle school and all the different things she could do there…I remember every September they would fill up the citys pool and have fishing in the swimming pool. You could catch 3 fish out of the city’s pool with some Marines helping to insure that you caught some or on sunday you could pay $15 and fish all day.
We did quite a lot of things there from camping at Davy Crockett to baseball. It is a tiny little city but there was lots to do…I tossed and turned all night long, but I knew I had to erase Toledo off the list.
So, I spoke with my mother this morning and cried because it has been 5 yrs of living near her and having movie days and holidays together. And I would miss that but I told her about Toledo and the high crime areas and choices and how I’m still getting calls from Landlords in Michigan but they are only Detriot choices or above my price and so she told us not to worry about her. She has her best friend here who can take her around and that she will be fine that the most important thing is our safety and security. So, we’re heading back to Tennessee. We will start over there. I’m gonna put my appliances in storage and take the t.v’s and computers and everything else will have to go. Lea doesn’t know that we’re moving back yet. She will be excited though when I tell her.
But, that means I have to sell my flock, even the ones I just got. Those ugly meat birds are so yucky I may just count them as a loss. My 8 hens-(Mushroom-(whom I’ll miss the most) and the other Spice Girls and Dream Girls)-and my 7 white rocks and tiny lone Aracauana) and all of my chicken equipment will have to be sold asap. I need to save up as much money as we can now. I am still planning on gardening in pots and taking that with me. And of course Ohio born Fiesty will be coming with us. We moved up here by stuffing our old 89 Buick Lesabre full to the brim with stuff and thats how we’re gonna return just in a 99 Chevy Venture and either a trailer hitched on to our van or two friends driving a small Uhaul down. Hopefully after awhile we can move to an area down there where we can have the chickens again. But its easier to move and find a place without them than with. Not having the chickens is gonna break my heart but I’ve got to do whats best for Lea and moving to a safe comfortable area where we were happy is what is important. I’ll miss my mom a great deal but we’ve left before and everything is pointing towards us leaving again.
Now that the dilemma has been solved finally, I can focus on other things.